Another Kind of Fog  I look in your eyes
But you are not there
I wonder how you feel
If only you could share

I talk to you
I teach you
I learn from you
I believe in ...

My Brother Is Autistic  My brother is autistic.
We find it very hard to communicate with him.
Even in the yard, he sometimes scratches or hits me.
Even though he isn’t mean....

Our Own Tracks  In such an instant
The meaning of life
Was never so present
Till you were born on that night

So grateful for fires
That mold and refine
To ...

Waves  Sometimes Autism overwhelms us,
Washes over us, nearly drowns us.
Frigid fingers cling to us
Pulling us down into its black depths.

We flounder ...

Autism If You Only Knew  Autism if you only knew what you've done to me and my family. In the past 15 years you've brought hurt, shame, pain, guilt and misunderstanding. You've ...

Christ's Plan  The passion in your heart
Shines through your eyes

Because autism will not allow you to speak

The words you hold on your tongue
Are expressed through ...

Through Your Eyes  You study things so closely in your quirky little way
You wanna know everything at everytime of day
Everyday is different except for your routine
I ...

She Wouldn't Be Abby  Who would this child be, if not from the start
Her quiet smile and sparkling eyes held no clue to her secret
As she grew and no one still knew
Who ...

A Special Package   When he was born, staring at me,
Not crying just a sweet little bundle of Joy.
As he grew older he really did not like to play with any toy.

He ...

I'll Wait  Day after day, you walk into my classroom and go through your routine. You hang up your coat and backpack and put away your things.

Circle time and ...

Wish I Could Follow  The way she moves, the way she speaks,
So different and yet so similar to me.
I want to know how she feels,
What captivates her as real.

I watch ...

God's Perfect Gift  When I first held you in my arms
I fell in love in love with you,
When you look at me
My heart was yours.

I would tickle your toes
And see you ...

Do They Think I Don't know?  Dedicated to my friend with A.S.

“She can't help it; she doesn't know...”
I hear it every day.
What coveted thing do I not know?

I know that ...

Give Him A Voice  When I was young I didn't ever understand
How come he would always shake his hand
He never spoke, and I didn't know why
That always made me cry
Kids ...

A Sister's Poem  You are going on a journey,
As hard as it may be,
I am here for you,
Whatever you may see.

Whenever you can’t keep up,
With life and all its fears,...

A Picture In Time  When I saw your face, I couldn't recognise
Your smile or your frown
The expression in your eyes
But I remember the words you said two years ago,
I ...

Sometimes  Sometimes I look at my brother and it makes me sad,
As I realize all of the things he has never had

Sometimes I feel guilty that it is him and not ...

Fallen Angels  I am very lucky
I have these two friends you see
I’d say they were more like angels
But you’d never believe me

We can’t hold a conversation
For ...

My Autistic Son  They ask me” what is wrong with him” they ask me “what’s not right”

Long blond hair and big blue eyes they fail to see my plight.

“They all do that”...

Different  I've been through dark
Through dust, through dawn
I've climbed the steps
I've faced your taunts

You've laughed, you've mocked
You've stared, you'...

A Special Child  The future so uncertain
The past is just a haze
The truth is there for life
It will never be a phase
My child maybe awkward
Every day I watch him ...

SuperDad  In the face of unexpected news
You held onto my hand
Prayed with me when no other words could be said
Unaware of how autism could change a family’s ...

No Apologies  His teacher is so nice
the patience she has...
and his aides are great
so helpful and good.

His speech therapist
exudes much enthusiasm
and the ...

Team Ava 
Our S.O.S. has gone unanswered for too long.
We are stranded.
Searching the horizon for help that will never arrive.
There is no help coming.
No ...

Misdiagnosis  Autism, you are not my diagnosis
You are the garbage bag I got thrown into
When even ADHD didn’t want me anymore
You are judgmental psychiatrist viewing
...

I watch you on your own Island  I watch you on your own Island
You seem happy that way : )
Sometimes when your not looking
I cry my act away

King of your own island people do ...

You Hate Me And I'm Sorry  For Alex, age 7
I try and wake you in the morning
You won’t get up so I dress you while you’re still in bed
It's harder every day
Because you're almost ...

Thinking Underwater  I am underwater, floating.
My eyes are closed.
For a brief moment, I do not see the bright lights humming above my head, glaring like a thousand suns....

Demi's World  Sweet innocence not understood by all.
Angelique face, eyes representing deepest colors of fall.
In your mysterious world, there are no fears.

Everything ...

Autism Can Be Hard to Live With  I love my big brother Connor, even though autism can be hard to live with.

Sharing a room isn't so bad, but I can't wait until I don't have to do it ...

My Little Man  On my 21st birthday I found out you were on your way
It was a very mixed emotional day
I was nervous, excited, scared
And for what was ahead I wasn'...

Thank You, Father God  "Healthy, gorgeous boy," everybody told me.
I named him Jayden, the light of my eyes, the smaller of the two.
He has a big brother, Brian. He's pretty ...

Living With Autism  Living with Autism is a hard thing to do,
There will be times when you’re sad lonely and blue.
Guaranteed are times when you will miss understand,
Or ...

Our Son Nicholas  You were different from the others,
And God was very well aware,
You needed a lot of love and caring,
A family with all that to share.

He sent you ...

The Misunderstood Child  I am the child that looks healthy and fine
I was born with ten fingers and toes
But something is different somewhere in my mind
And what that is nobody ...

Self-Loathing: I Assume It’s A Phase of Grief  I know, I know.
My heart shouldn’t be bleeding.
Pierced.
Tattooed with blood red ink.
I shouldn’t want to curl up into a ball and hide from the ...

Ryan's World  Most days we try and walk to school
The route does vary but only one is cool
He likes it when we walk through the church yard
Although mum always needs ...

Hero Defined  The day I became a father
Was a day I'll never forget
My beautiful black-haired boy
What a day... the day we met.

God dealt him a very bad hand
Something ...

Cry Boy  My outside is different than
My inside so,
I punch and kick and whine and
Always scream "No."
I whine and cry like I'm a
Two year old boy,
And I ...

Tennis Shoes  I want to be one of those moms in tennis shoes.
Pony-tailed hair, Nike workout pants, baseball cap.
The mom that is ready to take the world on.
Conquer ...

Non-Stare Day  For my special son, Kian

I'll tell you Kian what I'm going to do,
I'm going to make a day for me and you.
This day I'll call non-stare day
and ...

I Am Who I Am For You   The day you came into my world
A certain responsibility I obtained
To keep you safe
To keep You smiling
To keep you away
from the mean kids who ...

Dear Teachers of the World  My Baby has Autism
How can you help
Teach him
Learn from him
Understand him
Respect him
Laugh with him because

Maybe he'll be a great scientist
...

My Name Is Jackson  People may not understand me or why I act a certain way.
I may get upset over silly things, some people might say.
I look like any other boy, sometimes ...

We're Your Special Kids   (Special Education Teacher Appreciation)

Sarah didn't hear you say
what we are going to learn today.
Sam jumped to his feet
each time he heard a ...

A Child Will Lead Them  Life isn't always what you expect
Yet none of this would I reject
I planned to lead my son
But God's greater plan has won.

My small child teaches ...

So Confused  Sometimes when I'm in class,
I feel annoyed.
It's too loud,
Too fast.
Weird.

It's hard to talk to people when they're not listening,
Hard to listen ...

Monsters  Child, I don't know the reason
why you aren't like the others
who can talk and laugh and learn
and play tag with their brothers.

You try and try ...

Advocate   I am his, I am hers, I am their sounding voice
I am the trumpet leading their alarm
I am the quilt that shields them from harm
We are the voice to ...

Letting Go Of Italy  Emily.
I’m looking hard for the tulips.
The windmills.
The Rembrandts.
Hell, I’ll take a clog.

Although I know that it is just a different ...

Dear Autism  Dear Autism,

It's been at least 7 years since you came to visit and you haven't left my home. From the looks of things you're here to stay. You didn'...

I Am A Parent  I Am A Parent

I am Xena. Real life warrior, goddess of an
invisible or invisible disabilities
With my steel plated armour I can fight anyone who ...

My Ava  The most unexpected things can hurt.
A package of 2T undies, while I buy diapers with no end in sight.
A little girl saying, “Haylee, come here,” to ...

AUTISM Tis A-U-M  Have you ever thought of our senses?
Four of five we have no control
Our eyes see the beauty and ugly unless
We are blind or they are closed.

Our ...

Beauty is...  Beauty is in the world that I see
A big red balloon
A shiny new swing
A sunny afternoon
The first signs of spring


Beauty is in the world that ...

Brother, Through The Storm  Pray, pray for me, because your prayers mean more than mine
Smile for me
I don’t know if you see like me, or hear like me,
But I know you understand
...

Jeiron  I would never deny Jeiron has autism;
he is so much more than a label.
He's a wonderful, sweet loving boy who gives us great happeniness.
Regardless ...

Amber-Rose, Precious Jewel  My Wee Amber-rose, you are a very precious sole
when you came from heaven, you looked so perfect,
I was cautious at your sleepy behaviour,
when you ...

Just Give Me Care  "Why God
Do you trust me this much
To give me a child like this?"
I may ask...

Is he having a hard morning?'
My friend asked
"No" I replied "he ...

Twas The Night Before Christmas  This poem is written by a mother who has a child with Autism.

Happy Holidays to all...!


Twas the night before Christmas
And all through the ...

Imagine For One Moment  Imagine for one moment, one small fraction of your life,
how it would feel to hear a sound so loud that your ears feel like they will explode.

Now ...

The Unheard Song  Sometimes I feel like I'm singing an endless song
The one that won't be over and seems too long
The one nobody wants to listen to and changes the station
...

If The World Could Fly  If the world could fly;
Then so could I.
I would take you in my wings:
We would hear the what lies within.

I would let you see the colors;
You would ...

The House Of Locks  House Of Locks

You know our house on the block,
it's the one they call the house of locks.
We're not worried about what may come in,
What scares ...

The Dandelion Child  Children come with many different looks,
the color of their hair, eyes, and skin,
but I think it is time, that we took
to try to see what's really within....

Good Morning, Son Shine  I see you each morning and wonder, when will I hear you say, "Good Morning Mommy."

One day you will be able to tell me what you want to eat for breakfast ...

Autism Is A Journey  Autism is a journey traveled by those so afflicted.
And those who are chosen to share there lives.
It is a Journey full of twist and turns, ups and ...

Even If It Rains (Autism)  I remember the first time I saw your little face
The feeling that came over me your “title” could not replace
I love you more than ever now
Because ...

Our Ray Of Sunshine  You came into our lives as a ray of sun.
A big smile that said I love you
And knew we were meant for each other.
Did not know what laid ahead of this ...

Diagnosing Dakota with Autism  In these modern times

Filled with healthcare crimes

At just 18 months

You stole Dakota from us

Her connections under parasol

Due to toxic ...

I Do Not Cry For Who You Are  Tears have stopped falling
On the fragments of my dreams,
I no longer mourn illusions
Of yesterday's reality.

Tears that fell so often,
Almost every ...

Surviving  A lot people have helped me
In many ways
Guiding me to the way

I don't know what is called "surviving"
The love and care that everyone has shown
...

Because Of You  I was alone
In my own little zone - autism then unknown!
Scared and afraid
I kept quiet -- lost and confused

Feeling stolen yet somewhat bruised ...

Why, Why At School?  Why at school?
Was I not cool?
Why at school did no one
Stand up to play "my ball?"
No one at all!

All I end up asking is why!
Why was I known ...

Who Said?  Who said A.S don't physically hurt
By trying on a dress, trousers, shirt or skirt?
We don't like loud noises, crowds, faces
We sometimes act to others ...

Kaitlyns Song  Freely she runs the breeze in her hair
In her young life she has not a care
Her words are few but her spirit is strong
She lives everyday like a beautiful ...

Another World  My son has his own special World;
A very unique world alone with his thoughts.
I never see what he feels, for I am on the other side.

As he plays,...

The World of Autism
and Neurotypicality  One looks at me,
Watches me,
And I sit alone in a corner
Or gaze away from the eye
He goes to a large crowd,
Attends an elegant party,
And he notices ...

On The Occasion Of My Last Day
Of Elementary School  I've been walking these halls since I was three,
A little barely talking me.
I may have been different, but you could see.

You've always known that ...

Who Can Say?  My child is beautiful and bright.
I haven't seen a more adorable sight.
Who says there is something wrong?
Just because she babbles on and on.
How ...

My Son, My Hero  I have a hero who isn't made famous or make believe.
I have a hero who means the world to me.
My hero is tall and so handsome with a funny sense of humor....

I Promise You This  I promise you this:
With every step you take
I will hold your hand.
And together we will make
Your life a little brighter,
your smile a little bigger....

My Amazing Emily  You have amazed many people, big and small.
At times, you are the one standing tall.
You've always had your own unique style.
Your gloves, your scarf,...

My Son Braydon  My son is beautiful, he has big brown eyes.
He's a tough lil' guy, he hardly ever cries.
He loves Barney, Teletubbies and playing in the rain.
He crawls ...

What Is Me  What I See

When they stare at me I turn my head away.
I can't bare to look at them, such a strange thing to do.
Staring into one's eyes is an awful ...

My Little Boy Lost  My little boy lost.
Mummy will always find you.
No matter what it takes.
You will always be reminded
how much you were wanted and loved and adored....

Why Lord?  To see our son slowly change in front of our eyes.
I wonder why Lord
When we see that he has no social skills with others.
I wonder why Lord
When ...

Joseph Hill (The Man)  My older brother Joseph has always been different from everyone else, but in the inside he is the same as everyone else. He lives with our dad's parents ...

I See But I Can't Feel  I understand that he seems different but he seems normal to me.

People please go by what you feel and not by what you see.

My friend is nothing but ...

A Day In The Life Of Ian  I watch him as he watches the world around him
and often wonder what he sees.
If the world could see him the way that I do
their amazement, like mine,...

Special Love   There's something extraordinary about you
I cannot see it clearly.
I know it's there, I feel it so
Yet my love grows tenderly.

When words have ...

Live Your Life Like You Mean It  I cry because I am alone
in this world of autism and I like it.
I am writing my book right now.

Life is talking, Mom.
Give my writing more time to ...

My Sunshine  Throughout all my childhood years I anticipated.
The day he was born I was animated.
I was very proud to exhibit his picture
Wherever I went.
My ...

Nothing Bullies Past!  I want to scream, shout - anything but nothing at all will come out!
I push it all deep inside so secretely, it can hide
The hurt and pain - again, again!...

Autism  You hold out your hand to me
You have that look in your eyes
I wish I could understand you
But it takes so many tries
I know that you're frustrated
...

How I Feel   Yes I run around in circles
I talk when it’s not my turn
Sometimes I may seem clumsy
I’m a little uneasy
When it comes to certain sounds.
When ...

God's Autism Classroom  I walk into the room,
from area to area I go,
looking at all the "visual supports,"
suspended by Velcro.

Pictures of activities,
"Math, reading,...

Me and My Brother  You see me and my brother are very much alike.
He is autistic and I'm dyslexic.

We both get confused very easily.
And we aren't as good as everyone ...

He Is My Baby Brother  Just because he cannot speak
Does not mean he is deaf.
Nor does it mean he cannot feel pain
Just because he inflicts it upon himself.

His mind ...

Judge If You Want To  Go ahead and judge me. I know what you are thinking. You are thinking look at that child, he is way too old to scream like that.

I realize you think ...

Daddy I Love You  Every time it rains I look
For the colors in the sky
And make a wish,
I hope will come true.

When I see the rainbow,
I get a tear in my eye
Maybe ...

My Girl  My girl is happy... she's got me
My girl is happy she's not angry

Makes me feel good...
Makes me feel so good

My girl is pretty
Like flowers and ...

My Little Brother Emlyn  You may not understand him, or the way he feels today.
You may not understand his reasoning for things he does or says.
The reasons why he is so loud ...

Alone in Autism  It could be said that your little neurons
are short circuiting, that your chromosome
anomaly may not be related.
And you just might be the most ...